Thankful Thursday...uh ohh

So on this blog, i try to be positive, i intentionally write about things that build up, things that encourage, you know, pointers to that good place i'm striving to be at...I try as much as possible to leave the negative at the door, to take a deep breath, pray, and realize that negative thoughts aren't "right", and i don't want to give them life by dwelling on them. It in no way means that my life is perfect, or i have it all together even most of the time. I have a whole list of things that i am "working on" removing from my life, knowing the "right" and trying, in the face of circumstances to apply it, and not just go apeshit...

Today is not one of those days when i'm zen. I'm writing about it, because frankly, i probably don't have it in me to do the deep breath thing, and writing as is might be the only way to avoid catching a case. Also, in small does, if i don't make a habit of it, it's well worth it just laying it out as it is, before the calm down and philosophy talk.

Maybe it's a sign or signal that something somewhere is off, maybe it's just life...but i've been at wits end for the last couple of days. Love is patient love is kind...yeah, i'm mega irritable, and no, it's not girl problems. My patience is spread thin, and certain people in my life seem to be taking the mickey and somehow manage to do things, to merely exist in such a way that my nerves are frayed from being around them. Maybe i'm cranky and running low on sleep (very possible), maybe our relationship is better diluted, because the whole thin line between love and hate thing seems to get very thin indeed every now and again...This is why some people have great "marriages" where they "date" through the entire thing, you know, give each other space, go visiting...

I know i probably have my own role to play in these altercations, and maybe i should excercise more patience and calm...but dude! a person can only take so much yeah...so right now, i need a prayer and a break, because the rage that has seized me a couple of times today is something i thought i had walked away from...but then again, it's not all bad, because now i have to go back to the start and remind myself that being a christian doesn't mean you stop being human, it means that God will walk you through whatever comes your way. Falling happens, bad habits creep back up...you are not immune to it...and it is not a reason to throw in the towel and say you fail at Christianity...diiig?

Say a prayer for me though...cuz i be going HULK here!

I am thankful for life

I am thankful for God

I am thankful for growth

I am thankful for love

I am thankful for the internet!

I am thankful for MY life

I am thankful for friends and family

I am thankful for food

I am thankful for my relationship with God

I am thankful for my relationship with my sisters

I am thankful for prayer

I am thankful for Grace

I am thankful for the pleasant unexpected things that happen

I am thankful for His perfect plan

I am thankful for His word

I am thankful for Understanding

I am thankful for wisdom

I am thankful for patience

I am thankful for...calm

I am thankful for today

I am thankful that i am so blessed

I am thankful for summer

I am thankful for answered prayers

I am thankful for faith

I am thankful for forgiveness

I am thankful for repentance

I am thankful for Skype :P

I am thankful for philosophy

I am thankful for the amazing people in my life

I am thankful for potential

I am thankful for church

I am thankful...for the ability to chill, and just Trust God.

I am thankful!