Thankful Thursday: Official and everything!

At some point this afternoon, i put two and all the fb and twitter updates i was seeing today together, remembered that it was Thursday...and it hit me that this was a very very actual day for a TT :D Happy Thanksgiving i guess...even if someone rightly pointed out, that for all non US residents, it's tantamount (what sort of Ponce uses "tantamount" in actual sentences?..anyways) to Americans saying Happy Osun (whatever that is)...anywho..any reason to be thankful is good enough for me :D

I am thankful thay God turns my frowns upside down. He does this in ways that calm my anxieties and remind me that He's got my back. For some inexplicable reason, i keep forgetting this and trying to handle everything...then proceed to fail woefully at it, and collapse in gratitude when He comes through and makes all the problems go away..then we sit back and have a good laugh and it's another lesson learned. I don't care how overwhelmed you are, or how hopeless you think a situation looks from where you're sitting, standing or curled up crying...He will stupefy you when He makes it all better.

Sometimes (a LOT of the time) it's mad difficult to sit there and act all believerish and positive. It's downright frustrating even, because human logic is constantly stage whispering at you what a fool you look, believing everything is fine when it's all crashing down all around you...I've been there this week, several times. I was there today..i will have a bruise on my arm tomorrow to prove it. I lost my cool, i forgot to be all positive..yes, i'm human..and my tears were 75% pure frustration..because it seems so unfair at the moment...

It's evening now..and everything that was causing me to be anxious? done. I was in a panic as to how i'd sort it all, BP up and all over everywhere, thinking of what on my list had to go...and you know what? everything that i had lined up (save for the assignment that i need to copy and paste together until it looks like an original piece :P ) is all done. That is a testimony. He is everything and more than worthy of our 100% trust and love and gratitude...now don't get it twisted..it's properly difficult to go about 24/7 in this state of mind..and that's okay..He understands this, and doesn't demand it of you from the get go...even when you're pro...you're still human...so it's okay..just don't let it turn into a road block, or a "turn around and stop" or "stop and turn around" sign...

abi it's Matthew 6&7...do not be anxious...do not be anxious..chant that like a mantra...He's got this...if i list out the ways i've seen this happen in the last week alone....that's what i'm on....take a deep breath, and stop getting in His way so much...

I am thankful for Life

I am thankful for Love

I am thankful for friends

I am thankful for family

I am thankful for laughter

I am thankful that V is okay...

I am thankful for my godmothers new dog...i had a lesson in love yesterday...suuuch positivity...it's therapy mahn..

I am thankful for communication

I am thankful for kindness

I am thankful for understanding

I am thankful for forgiveness

I am thankful for harmony

I am thankful for inspiration

I am thankful for support of the moral variety

I am thankful that i am so loved. God has blessed me with the most amazing friends. Not just the ones that have been there since forever...but people who's kindness just touches you down deep, and they don't even suspect how much their care means....God bless them abundantly..

I am thankful for each day

I am thankful for nature

I am thankful for hardships that we overcome, hardships that are motivation...they make us grow...

I am thankful for music

I am thankful for God.

I am thankful for my sisters..

I am thankful for this week....DOOOD! it's Friday already? huh? when?

I am thankful for showers

I am thankful for where i am, for who i am, and am thankful for everything and everyone and every experience that led me here..God makes no mistakes.

I am thankful for this feeling i get when i count my blessings..i'm delirious! I have God, and He won't ever, doesn't ever leave me...

I am thankful!

In all things, give thanks...

Phewwww it's been a while...this phrase is becoming too much of a standard beginning to my posts...but no matter...

Obviously, my reasons are quite legit so let's get that one over with :P...it's quite simple really...according to the "once bitten, twice shy" doctrine, i went into turtle mode. Vulnerability overdrive and not wanting to share myself..because my words are an extension of me, and putting them all up and out there and having them...again, no matter....especially as i have been going through a period where there's just been literally no me to share.

They say that a person can only share what they have. Out of what they do possess can they take a bit, or a lot, and hand to another person, in the same nature as is the thing itself...i have come with my long sentences..basically, if you have apples, you can share apples, if you have rotten tomatoes, that's all that you can potentially share, there.

All that one is even another post. In line with taking baby steps, and continuing my all round healing and growth process, it has been hinted to me that writing this post today (not tomorrow, and not yesterday) is the next step...if it's a starting step to a line of steps, or just a control step, after which i go to another lesson, i have no idea.

I just really really really want to yell this from the mountaintops: In ALL things, be thankful. Yesterday just looked like Punkd....it was the first day of the beginning of this reform i've started out on...and all these challenges were just popping up left, right and center to the point where if it wasn't frustrating, i would have given in to the laughter that was just fighting to get out...and i did laugh, eventually....But again, that's not the point. The point is, they all challenged me to be thankful, despite the situation, to live up to the positivity that i embarked on the day before. At first, it was through sheer determination, because the only thing i wanted to do was tap into my rich vocabulary of cusses..in several languages...small small, i answered instead with thanks...and you know what? it calmed me down, and i started being genuinely thankful, regardless of the situation, because it put things in perspective and made me see that the blessings i do have just dwarf and annihilate these insignificant things that if payed attention to, if fed with the negativity they crave, are a threat to my general happiness not just at the given moment, but in future, and in the big picture of my life...

I'm just started out on this...but the blessings and fortune that have just enveloped me as a result...are the best motivation i could ask for...Trust in God, know that He doesn't make mistakes...your own part will be to pass any tests thrown your way, do not give in to negativity and doubt...and your joy will just grow before your eyes. Oh, and that is another point..be happy. NOW. Not when something happens or when you buy something or eat something. Decide to be happy, and simply be so...it requires nothing more than deciding to be so, and BEING so. Do not tie your happiness to any external factors. To do so is to surrender all the rights you have over you to everyone and everything else, and have no control over your own life...and that's just silly. You own your own happiness.

Okayyy...before i gwan break something...these muscles have been out of practice, yea? before i just strain sumn...kai...but i guess there is what to write about meyn...the second half of this year has just been...whoaaaaa! i just thank God! I am so thankful it's making me delirious...

I am thankful for Life, for God, for Love, for friends and family....and everything else that i shall do justice to in subsequent posts....

xoxo.