Thankful Thursday: A bit of salt, a little lemon...

Again, i find my voice in food references...what can i say?

First though..i've been on a break, a hiatus if you will...It is with hesitation i call it either since it has been more of chance than choice. Since the last post, i have spent every thursday either at my friend's, at my godmothers...or M or M came back from their holidays and we went out...I usually remembered it was Thursday and i had to do something on Friday morning, or afternoon.

I am not proud of this. Not that i have anything against breaks, or feel that they have no place where this blog is concerned..but that i know it's a reflection, or a result of the state of my spiritual life, if you will. Now, there have been times when i feel less than sunny, and still banged out posts, so the absence of posts is no indication of anything as a general rule. In this case, however, i recognise that if i was where i'd like to be, then i would actually remember, and plan the posts during the week, and would make the time, come rain or shine, to post it.

Again, though..everything happens as it ought to so i'm not beating myself up over it.

God has been amazing, and especially faithful to me this year. I mention faithfulness separately, because along with His Grace, i need that. Our relationship has been riding on His faithfulness, on His being there because from my side..whew! I've been running, i've been hiding, i've been slippin, and i've been slidin'...He is patient, He encourages me. In my darkest moments, He speaks to me and He tells me, He shows me He loves me...and i know we can never do anything to "deserve" or "earn" His love...but mahn...i know better than to be where i've been...that's all i'm saying.

He is faithful, and with every situation, He creates the path that leads me into His arms. If we must run, then let us run into His arms, if we must hide, then let us do it in His embrace. Sometimes, it's when we are beaten and low that we find it in us to crawl back to Him.

And i am thankful for this. It is dual reality of opposite sentiments. On the one hand, there are things in my life right now that upset me and cause me pain, and i feel it and want to wallow in it...on the other hand, i know the truth that is that these things are things i had no business reaching out for or having in the first place, and i'm thankful that God has set it up such that they are not part of my life..it's an interesting state to be in...I'm hurtin' over losses, and i'm so thankful to God for making it possible to let go...ha...

I have so much to be thankful for...it's been a whole month! Today is the last day of the first month of this year! like...whoa...I cannot wait to see what else this year holds for me...there are so many firsts, so many steps, so much growth to be done...

Back to the salt and lemons though.

During one of my mind wanderings and musings, i caught myself on the thought of relationships and the sort of people we ought to be with. (Yeah, i know, huge surprise there). This is what occoured to me. The best sort of person a person can be with, is one who makes you the best you that you are.

I was thinking about this in relation to how there are people, friends included, with whom i feel like there's a part of me locked away when i'm with them. And then there are strangers who make you come alive and achieve things that you never knew you had in you. I have seen this happen with encouragement from teachers, i have had this happen with people just trusting you, or having the sort of demeanour and conversation from which you just...you know...feel you can take on the world.

There is a distinction between this, and just a person who adores your amazing self. This is where lemons come in. and salt too...See, both do this thing to food where they make the original thing pop. A bit of salt in a chocolate cake makes a world of difference, or on a watermelon for instance. Or how lemons make seafood that much better.

I know this sounds silly right about here, but in my head it was a teeny eureka moment. I have had glimpses of this, and i know how amazing it is. I've been around people who make my very spirit shrink and close up...and i'll tell you this...it is the most horrible feeling bar none. To feel repressed in a relationship is the most pointless thing. Be with people- friends, boyfriends, girlfriends, colleagues, husbands, wives who water your spirit, the ones who make you pop :P...it goes without saying that you should be the same to them...

On that happy note...

I am thankful for life

I am thankful for God

I am thankful for my family

I am thankful for favour. The blessings in my life are not worked by my own hand. I am not the smartest, the most hard working, the most kind, or the most anything.

I am thankful for His faithfulness.

I am thankful for His patience.

I am thankful for wisdom.

I am thankful for His patience.

I am thankful for His perfect timing.

I am thankful for love.

I am thankful for laughter.

I am thankful for my first official job yo! Write this date down! whoop whoop! All by His grace..

I am thankful for His provision

I am thankful for His protection

I am thankful for prayer

I am thankful for growth

I am thankful for forgiveness

I am thankful for understanding

I am thankful for books! and free ebooks!

I am thankful for wifi

I am thankful for His LOVE!

I am thankful that He cares for me

I am thankful that i have everything i need

I am thankful that i have Him

I am thankful for 2Cor5:17

I am thankful for the relationship i am blessed to have with Him, even when i've done everything to not deserve it.

I am thankful!