Detox. Of the Mind, body and..soul? purgatory, confession, laying it all out, accepting blame and attempting to make it right..baby steps. Letting go and hanging on. I'm only human, and some things are harder to let go of than others...who would have thought?
Good thing about detox though, (of the mind, body or the soul) is that with each passing day, the light gets clearer and it's that much easier...i guess...need to find balance, need to find truth, and then you know what it is that you should, how it is that you should...like...like when people are all bundled up and hyped to hike across a desert (why they would do this is beyond me, but work with me here). First order of business is agreeing on where they are headed and how they are getting there, before...he even touches a pen or speaks in a rhyme, lol..excuse the outburst of Fort Minor...it's been a while, and this whole thinking thing..i haven't done in a while. I meant before they take any steps in any direction whatsoever.
Which is kinda the big question in Religion in general, no? WHAT to believe? how to go about it? tell me and i shall do...it is the lack of instructions that convict and convince that are the bane of my existence. Each day i find new answers, new interpretations that leave me going, right. So what now? I dunno..most of the time, i like it, this pick n mix relationship that i'm building with Him...It just might be the one place in which a truth of any sort lies...but that's a whole other basket of...what's the expression again? i'm pretty sure it's one of those absurd oxymoronic word combinations. Yes i know that "oxymoronic" is not a word. Shame.
I am thankful for so much. I know i haven't been here logging it, but each day i am thankful, even when i'm too thick headed and busy being an ostrich about things..(there is nothing fun to look at in the sand, i assure you..oh, and because you can't see "them" it doesn't mean they don't see your great mighty behind sticking up in the air like the dumb bird that you are).
i am thankful for Family, who do not even know how much they have influenced the decisions i make...This detox? started the moment when Gramps looked at me..with this look..all innocent and trusting like when i said i was heading out to the park to read...i didn't mention everything, but i realized that i could not betray that trust...and i can't...it breaks my heart to remember that look..so i am Thankful for Grandpa and his unknowing help...
I am thankful for my mom! Who keeps me sane a lot of the time..she is AMAZING! and the best person i have been blessed to have in my life..i dunno bout lots of people, buh i gist with my mom, and she is awesome about it...Wonderful person!
I am thankful for my sisters...perfect little perfections! i can talk to them like...like it happens with no one else, that's what!
i am thankful that this semester/year is overrrr! okay one day to go, one test to go :D
I am thankful for my lecturers, and God will bless the chill ones overplenty...the ones that want to be biaches about it..una own dey wait una :P
I am thankful for L.V.V..because he is an awesomeness of a human being..even when he's being bloody annoying..he means well...teehee
i am thankful for friends, and memories
I am thankful for SUMMER!
I am thankful for S! omgomgomg..sometimes, i have to take the time out to convince myself that i know this person, and he is my friend, and i talk to him every day...no, nobody should pinch me abeg! :P
i am thankful for manybooks.net
I am thankful for books! yah kiddin me?
I am thankful for art
I am thankful that this Detox thing is making me appreciate so many things anew...say what you will, but lots of things people take for granted fuck (sorry blog!) with your mind, no lie. There, i said it. Pretend it's all "normal tingz" but somewhere, somehow, on some level, it messes with your mind, with your er..spirituality? with Something, That Something that makes me, in any case, think things, be a certain way..okay so maybe now i'm starting to sound a bit bonkers, but there is sense to this madness!
I am thankful...well that it's been more than a min, yea? lolz in our situations, every hour is a triumph!
I am thankful for pleasant people
I am thankful for tingles
i am thankful for the beach
I am thankful for who i am, where i am...
I am thankful that..yup, again, He has incredibly not given up on me....
I am thankful for fooood! lol..sometimes it's like...abi make i shun just chop? fat o, rotund o, spherical o, at least i'll be fed and happy?
I am thankful for eye candy..in human or stuff form :P
I am thankful that he has a plan, and coincidences simply do not exist
i am thankful for Philosophy
I am thankful for talented people...
I am thankful for inspiration and a whole lot of things, including love, laughter and lemons, but i forsee a productive future as concerns writing...So here's to detox and *incredulously!* and another chance.....
#off to attempt to think :P
Be blessed!
