Thankful Thursday: The Beautiful People

Is it ironic that i absolutely adore a Marilyn Manson song with that title? and it's playing in my head right now...teehee doesn't it seem perfectly blasphemous on this blog? *sigh* demon affiliation aside, Marilyn Manson rawks :P

The first time i put a definition, made into a conscious principle the stance i had on people, especially those i didn't really know was when my friend Fatima told me not to talk to one boy from her class because he was dumb and unintelligent and didn't get along with her.

This boy/young man has been nothing but extremely polite to me, and we had just had a pleasant superficial chit chat thing. I calmly told her that her request was absurd, seeing how i didn't have beef with this person, and that i wouldn't start one on the grounds that She didn't get along with him.

Sooo, principle being that i shall judge (not in that uppity sinful way nau, oya, replace it with assess) people based on the relationship they choose to have with me. Honestly, i do not care if your hobby is skinning baby rabbits...okay, so that might cause some issues, but my point is that if this hypothetical rabbit skinner gets on their best behaviour and is respectful and a general sweetheart to me, then it would be..a lie of me (just understand the expression jor!) to front...I'm not saying that anybody should run around looking for serial killers to make into best friends..but i'm slightly weird like that...I think i'm capable of seeing the *cough* human in a serial killer..you know, if they weren't lunging for my throat or anything..bad thing, good thing, i don't know...

In the end, it comes down to the specific relationship between you and another human being...and you can never define or judge that based on their relationship with another person..i know people who are extremely nice to me...and absolute horrors to some people *shrug* that's the way it is...so biko, don't let demsay or iheard, or i'msurethat cloud your vision...Give everyone a chance to speak for themselves, you'll be surprised what they say to you.

I am thankful for my Mommy!!! i spoke to her today and we got proper mushy..i love that woman more than all the water in all the Oceans...

I am thankful for me daddy! I like how i understand him a little more each day...

I am thankful that i've gotten up when i planned three days in a row! that, my dears, is a feat...it takes all my willpower not to hit snooze...the rewards are soooo worth it!...devotion time, a nice lazy unhurried breakfast, time to play with eyeshadow aaaaand catch the early bus which means i'm early to school+ i'm not sitting in first period regretting not getting up early, not eating, not having my quiet time...waking up early rawks!..starts your day with a sense of accomplishment...ahem...for sleepers like me, in any case :P

I am thankful that i haven't fallen in this slippery madness surrounding me...when winter is over, i'm going to the circus to apply for a part time job, because my balancing skillz iz maaaad now...teehee yea right...i'm clumiser than Bella! but i haven't fallen so yaaaay!

I am thankful for...the book market, because it makes me to be thankful for...

I am thankful for BOOKS! *drools* *eyes glaze over*...i can't believe i forgot how magical it is to read..to open a book and find yourself in another world, literally see and smell...or maybe i'm just crazy? I am thankful for Sefi Atta's "Everything Good will Come" and all the laugh out loud moments it brought me...even if that boy opposite me on the bus was lookin like he was about to call psychia..nonsense boy :P and i'm thankful for Twilight..omigosh don't even get me started on Twilight!!!! i can't believe it took me this long *sigh* I'm addited

I am especially thankful for Twilight because because....it reminds me of Z..a lot...it's nice to see someone in every page...maybe i'm random, maybe i'm crazy..but i'm Thankful! :P

I am thankful for Z...:) and that sentiment only gets stronger each day...it's....new...but very welcome indeed!

I am thankful for Z's Thankful Thursday...it made me smile, and it made me tear up..somewhere between sprite and pounded yam :P arghhh he's soooo adorable!

Borrowing from that TT, i am thankful that i have someone i care about...and he makes me smile everytime i think of him...and that includes randomly grinning at Nazi lecturers who cannot fathom what is entertaining about their lecture...*in my defence i pay attention in class o!...just multitaskin ish :P

I am thankful for memories...which unlike most times, seem to be very vivid recently..they keep me company :)..and make me nostalgic :(

I am thankful that my body is on a disciplining mission against me...seriously! it simply refuses oil and anything fried, is revolted when i feed it white bread..or better yet donuts..muahahaha fried white bread :(, it protests at coffee...and ciggarette smoke leaves me nauseous and wondering if i'm not a victim of immaculate conception....it's great!

I am thankful for music...not just vaguely, but for the lyrics, the voices, the calm they can bring, the spirits they can lift...Music is powerful..

I am thankful for good people

I am thankful for laughter

I am thankful for His patience with me...it is not hizzy!

I am thankful for my devotional bookies...they have really inspiring chapters!

I am thankful for SCL...because Jon Acuff always reminds me that God is fun dammit! He is FUN!...and all those people who think otherwise should just clear from my dommot :P

I am thankful for Youtube...and the think blue line i laugh myself to tears watching the same scene 10 times in a row...Goody is special...

I am thankful for jokes!!

I am thankful for being understood..if not by all, then by those who matter

I am thankful for feelings...i'm often fighting them away..but sometimes, they are the most delightful thing to give into

I am thankful for words

Have i mentioned that i am thankful for books? *does excited dance, looks at bookshelf, dances some more*

I am thankful for sunny winter days...even if the sun is strictly for posing purposes...

I am thankful for Prayer..i for don crase true true if i didn't have the option of praying until i got calm in the middle of the madness!

I am thankful for Joy!

I am thankful for wisdom

I am thankful for knowledge

I am thankful for His guidance..yes, i hear voices in my head sometimes, gorra problem wiv that? mscheww :P

I am thankful that i grew up in PhCityyy!!!!

I am thankful for ahmahzing lecturers...again..it's all about beautiful people!

I am thankful for Facebook, MSN, Hotmail, Glo (makes face), Life :)...because they, in their humble way, bring me and the people i care about closer...

I am thankful for..for doing it right this time..i think..i hope i am at least..

I am thankful for...innocence..agenda-less-ness (:P)

I am thankful for things that just are...and are immensely beautiful by being that way..they weren't planned, they were just created..have a certain ease and comfort about them, do not need constant definition....i am thankful for that...

I am thankful for funny accents :P

I am thankful for kisses..^_^ i shall stop there before i go and confess too mush! :P

I am thankful for...er...english wan hembrazz me here...Sensuality? it's..higher and way more special than aggressive sexuality...even if everything has its time and place and phase...yea...i likes that...i likes that mush :P

I am thankful for inspiration

I am thankful for bloggers!

I am thankful for shared ideas.

I am thankful for friendship and people who care..

I am thankful for kindness and not being indifferent

I am thankful for being able to help in my own little ways

I am thankful for....food! food blogs, street fashion blogs, japanese and korean pop songs, ART!!! (again, teehee), for pictures and quotes that take the words right out of your mouth...God bless Jeff Thomas for creating Pon and Zi...i cannot get over the adorableness!

Have i mentioned that i'm thankful for Z? he's a beautiful person aaaand i can talk to him about things aaaaaand he *cringes at word about to be used* inspires me aaaand lol//

I am thankful for cheesiness...sometimes, it's very apt...ooh and i like that i'm not alone in thinking that Handsome is a ridiculous adjective...bleh! i cannot say it without feeling stoopid

I am thankful for patience...Lord knows i need more lessons in that....but i'm gettin' there

I am thankful that my relationship with my grandma has improved..even if sometimes, i suspect it's more credit to her than to me...i need to remove some of these my provocable buttons sef...so that there is nothing for anybody to press...and i'll cut off my toes while i'm on that too...you know, so that nobody steps on them..

I am thankful that my grandma really really loves me and cares for me silly...

I am thankful for my sisters and what amazing young women they are! i am incredibly blessed to have them!

I am thankful for when i'm living right by Him...

I am thankful for being slightly more aware than i was say a month ago about my thoughts and reactions...and it's an effort, but i'm loving the results of this er..revolution :P

I am thankful for alternative rock songs

I am thankful for all those gospel(?) songs that will be makin you dance all sorts of attitude dances...Thats why i love Him like i do aaaaa!!!..it's the God in meeeee!!! I need a Heroooooo to save me noww! Dietrick Haddon and Mary Mary and Skillet are sooo guilty! :P

I am thankful for friends...they are nothing but a blessing!

I am thankful for the miracles that happen to me on the daily...like the quotes go..when don't pray, coincidences don't happen, when i pray, they do..that's all i'm sayin :P

I am thankful for them watch-the-movie-online sites..superyay! i heart Julie and Julia....oooh and Coco before Chanel...if i were a boy..okay, a man, my brain would crash everytime i say Audrey Tautou..:P this is just a phase, i promise...

I am thankful for, this time, physically beautiful people..i people watch, it's something i do...and sometimes, you spot the artwork ones...candy for the aesthetic soul...i say a little thankful prayer everytime...beauty is needed in the world...not in a superficial way sef..beauty in art, beauty in speech, beauty in living...okay i'm rambling.. :P

I am thankful for the little prayer prompts i get..have you ever felt compelled to pray for someone? about a situation? like rightnowrightnow? no?...it's a nice feeling...

I am thankful for life

I am thankful for Love..because love makes the ride worthwhile..it colours your journey, provides the sunshine and the flowers...diig? :P

I am thankful for nerdy things like English jokes..no no, not the nationality..more like language jokes, like...when words come together perfectly sarcastically? *sigh*

I am thankful!!!..and i'm sure i've left out half of the important things...will start jotting them down as they happen...

Ooo, i am thankful that my book lady trusts me :P...

I am thankful that we had two periods of THAT lecturer today...he rawks!

I am thankful that i didn't have to wait for my bus for more than 5 minutes today...and it was empty! ha! sitting space=reading Twilight= me in school early and extremely happy and not the least bit snappy...

I am thankful that it's Thursday....and evening, so technically it's Friday :P TGIF!!!

I am thankful for blogger!

I am thankful that i am able, for physical and most importantly, mental and spiritual reasons, to be able to write a TT post every week..

I am thankful that i can stay without getting too panicked over next week's timetable, because i know a fail-proof method to get it all taken care of :P

I am thankful for that 6 page assignment that i copied today :P....lol na make-your-own-note assignment naaaa...I am thankful for Vika, who did all the looking through textbook work so i didn't have to...

I am thankful for warm smiles...we need less people with attitude problems!

I am thankful for breathing exersises...which often succeed in keeping me from doing foolisher things to ease stress...i fully intend to increase that statistic in favour of breathing!

I am Thankful!!!

have a blessed week!

On the flip side...

Nothing is too small for God to handle...

We get/have gotten so caught up in the "nothing is too great for God to handle" view, that we completely blank on the possibility that nothing is too small for Him to take care of...

Unknowingly now, we tend to tell God what He's allowed to do; what He can help us in, and what He can't. He says that we should cast our burdens on him; all of them. It isn't said that we should cast them after appropriate screening. But that's what we do, isn't it? We pray that God should heal our sick, get us a promotion, protect us...That's all well and good, but at the same time, people neglect to put self defined "mundane" things under His care...Your assignment, the conversation you'll have with a friend, the interactions you'll have with strangers each and every day, your attitude, your thoughts each moment are good examples. Concerning these things, we subconsciously adopt a "i'll handle this on my own" attitude, no need bothering the Big Boss with my trivialities...

But that's the biggest mistake of all. These seemingly trivial things often affect us in ways that directly affects our relationship with Him. We are stuck trying to solve a problem on our own, which in turn increases our frustrations, and from personal experience, i know that frustration is a very good way to put distance between you and God, because you are not concentrating on your relationship with Him the way you ought to, instead you are trying to form Miss Independent with something that could be taken care of with one short prayer.

I've had situations where i was overwhelmed by seemingly everyday things to the point where i just wanted to sit and cry, knowing full well i could accomplish nothing. In these moments, He reminds me that He's just a prayer away. "Just cast your burdens", He says. And so i do...and the problems melt away, leaving me frustration free, and blessed with yet another reason to be delirious and thankful...because God is awesome like that...

Long story short, nothing is too small, too trivial to cast into His care. You are not expected to do anything all by yourself. Even in the midst of challenges, call out to Him and He will help you through...trying to do anything on your own, well, i'm not saying you can't succeed, i'm just pointing out that there's a better way...You just need to have faith, to Believe.

"Cast your burden on the Lord, and He shall sustain you; He shall never permit the righteous to be moved."
Psalm 55:22

Philippians 4:6
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.

1 Peter 5:7
Casting all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you.


Casting the whole of your care [all your anxieties, all your worries, all your concerns, once and for all] on Him, for He cares for you affectionately and cares about you watchfully. 1 Peter 5:7 (AMP)

Have a blessed week! and don't forget that nothing is too small for God to take care of...just try, and i promise that you'll understand what i mean even more. Be aware of every little thing, realize the moments in which you are struggling and trying to do anything entirely OYO (:P influence of friend o!) put EVERY little thing under His care...and you'll have nothing but sunshine :D

Thankful Thursday: Learning to See...

The best part about my flight back to Kiev was the hours of time i had to finish Al Koran's book and make lots and lots of notes and have lots and lots of thoughts...One of the bits that really got me was about being Aware. Being aware of your every breath, being aware of everything around you, not just looking, but seeing...

Like Z has pointed out to me, Al Koran and i have a lot in common ^_^...This book contains so much of what i already know, but at the same time gives me additional insight, makes me look at the same issues in a more complex way..it's great!..I've been on about this whole awareness thing for a while, and have tried to actively be so, but er...ya kno..life gets in the way...

Which is kind of my point, really...and like the quote goes, "what is life, if full of care, we have no time to stop and stare?" I am always too busy fulfilling my routine to take the time to stand and see myself from another perspective..it's always busybusybusy...but thats wrong. Going into zombie mode is the surest way to making the hugest mistakes. You stop thinking, you just act on inertia...and that...not good..not good at all...

Which is why i'm on this thing where i, a little at a time, will consciously make an effort to be Aware of me..of my thoughts, of the things around me..sebi like buddhists...i am breathing, i am reading, i am looking at a beautiful flower...lol...will admit that it's a bit harder than it sounds...trudging along on autopilot is so much easier..and at the same time so much more destructive, because your brain just closes down...

And thus, i am thankful for my camera, which forces me to see things in different ways..for realz, it's like exercise for er...the appreciation of things...not that i'm any good with it o! but for personal reasons, it's a fahbulous thing :D

I am thankful for Art...omigosh i love art..like lovelovelove! and i suspect that this love has always been there, just that now, for some reason, i realize it...i love..photography, abstract art, modern art, sculpture, graffiti, literary art:prose, poetry, witty fb statuses :P (extra thankful for the absolute beauty that happens when words work together...thankful for talented writers!) street fashion...er..seen the Sartorialist lately? beauty! Music.....Thank God for Art!

I am thankful for inspiration

I am thankful for Love

I am thankful for the support i get from friends and family

I am thankful for being able to be absolutely silly ^_^

I am thankful for opportunities i get to show love and help in the little ways that i can

I am thankful for the cute little doggies i see on my way to my bus stop :P :P

I am thankful for the new people i meet each day...thankful for random conversations..

I am thankful for school...mine is mostly a warm place to be...

I am thankful for my mother..who means the world and then some to me

I am thankful for my father...he's...he's been a blessing

I am thankful for blessings

I am thankful for sleep...which i have been doing shakara for...shame on me!

I am thankful for the lovelylovely guy at the Bobbi Brown store..he totally made my morning!

I am thankful for beautiful people...the beautiful on the inside ones..

I am thankful for His unwavering faith in me, even if i fall short on the daily

I am thankful for Blogger

I am thankful for ideas...

I am thankful for courage...that i still haven't fully mastered..kinda feel like the scarecrow in wizard of Oz :P

I am thankful for people who are not indifferent

I am thankful for growth

I am thankful for wisdom

I am thankful...i am thankful that i am able to care...thought i lost that a while ago..very welcome turn of events :P

I am thankful for Camels :P lol...figure that one out :P

I am thankful for facebook! cuz without it....without it, i'd be lacking some very special someones in my life...

I'm thankful for the view from my window at night..aaaahhh...lights, snow...bleh at going out in it though...

I'm thankful that my rants and ramblings are tolerated

I'm thankful for hot showers....long hot bathes

I am thankful for my army of lotions and potions...I'm an ADDICT! haaaa! I'm thankful that i get to be spoilt like so...it's the best way to be spoilt...vanilla and cherry and chocolate and cocoa butter and mint and and let's not even get started on fragrances! *stares off with blissful smile on face*

I'm thankful that He keeps me going

I'm thankful for answered prayers...like WHOA! i'm too in shock to be in shock, prayers literally get answered within hours...infs!

I am thankful for unanswered prayers..if to say God wicked, He for answer all my prayers without screening....= disaster!

I am thankful for my grandparents...they are the BEST!

I am thankful for my grandfathers wikid sense of humour ^_^

I am thankful for my grandma's hugs and occasional smothering with care

I am thankful that i am able to ask for forgiveness...cuz dhemmmn i've hurt people with insensitivity..so so so ashamed of it..there is good news though..i'm totally on an eradication campaign...being snappy is sabotaging my sweet-as-pie-ness :P

I am thankful for Z..i really am...like REALLY am...for more reasons than i can put into words...i need to learn how to paint or sumn :P

I am thankful for my sisters...and pray that they turn out better than me, and that i'm able to make that be the case..

I am thankful for the attitude i choose to have...

I am thankful for chewing gum :D

I am thankful for books, for ideas, for philosophy

I am thankful for old books...with notes in the margins :D

I am thankful for Nigerian authors..right now, i'm reading Yellow-Yellow and every chapter is making me emotional..it's either the book is SUPAH...or PMS is catching up....*sigh*

I am thankful for nature

I am thankful for thoughtfulness....most touching thing EVER!

I am thankful for the little things...it's always the little things...

I am thankful for the fact that tomorrow is Friday

I am thankful for Libraries

I am thankful for interesting classes

I am thankful for interesting people

I am thankful for Life

I am thankful for evolution...from..who i was, to who i'm becoming, and the beautiful journey i'm on

I'm thankful for when he understands my nuttiness...and plays right along! Banana and PawPaw much? :P

I am thankful for the funny accents we make

I am thankful for stand up comedy on youtube :D..and Spoken Word poetry too...even if it makes me not to sleep when i ought to...

I am thankful for resolution..and those moments in which i do what i have to and don't procrastinate :P..need to make more of those..

Thankful for people i can be myself with, and more thankful still for those who make me a better me...

Seriously thankful for the Al Koran book :)

Thankful for ALL the AHMAHZING books i have lined up to read

Thankful for Awareness...delightful consciousness...live every moment..it's a crime to numb it out..we are alive to live, not just to exist..if thats your plan for life, you might as well just buy a coffin now and lay in it...because theres no point if you're not living...the objective is to have as many stories to tell as you possibly can...make your album people! gather material for your memoir :P *makes note to self to be encouraged and inspired by own words*

...er..i know i have a whole list of ish planned to post but er....lol coming soon! pray for me jor!

How una body? una family? mothers and fathers? ogas and madams? pikins and grandpikni? Hope everything is great with everyone..and even if it doesn't seem so at the moment...it will be...

Lots and lots of love!

Thankful Thursday: One day late but oh-so-worth it

*Grinning from ear to ear*

Thankful that i get to be this delirious..it is not a bad feeling at all to walk around smiling from somewhere deep within, not just that shallow lips only smile people smile for other people...

Thankful for yesterday...a Thankful Thursday not typed, but in no way neglected, see this one, i lived it :D I had the nicest evening i've had in ages, and it was just so right..i don't know how to put it in words..remember the best time you spent with someone you really cared about? yup :D

Thankful for the faith instilled in me, which makes me not to panic and go paranoid over the future, because if it wasn't for that..lol...lol..you don't wanna know the levels of freaked out i can attain..i am thankful for the peace that comes with trusting that each day will go just as it's supposed to and turn out to be a good thing for me

Thankful for him...:P regular feature much? ^_^ he is such a beautiful person :)

Thankful for the people in my life, new and old..i've made some really nice friends in the past two weeks, and learned lessons on being blind to whats right in front of you :P

Thankful for laughter

Thankful for cuddles...

Thankful for my amaaazing sisters who put up with all the craziness that is me :D

I am thankful for memories...they are a blessing that keep you going...make memories every moment or every day...

I am thankful for the people that put up with the randomness that my blogs are i wuv you! ^_^

I am thankful for eyeshadow :P shhhh

I am thankful for conflicts...often times, they are necessary..soooo many things are resolved through them, you know? better to get it over with instead of being on edge with anticipation...

I am thankful for bright nailpolish..the neoner the better...i promise that this is just a phase..i promise!

I am thankful for books..omigosh! there is so much interesting stuff to learn!

I am thankful for God's plans...they are never ever wrong

I am thankful for God's patience and understanding when i'm being stupid and impatient and whining "but i want it NOW"..er spoilt brat much?

I am thankful for inspiration...because truth be told, while it's all nice and well to think and then intellectually write something, most times, i just blank my own reasoning and let this other part of me rant...and you know what? It has rarely failed me..cuz somewhere along the line my own counsciousness catches up and makes sense of it...

I am thankful for my mommy :D i lovelovelovelove my mommy..she's the bestest mommy in the whole wide world...except your mommy, naturally :P teehee...my mother is my first and biggest blessing in my life :D

Thankful for This...this him and me thing this....This...it's effortless, it's comfortable, it just is...and i am megasuperthankful

I am thankful for British humour..yes yes, leave am for me..it is the bestest thing ever..NOT paradoxical at all :P

I am thankful for...people who get me...rumour has it that you need two PhD's to do that :P

Thankful for people i can be myself with... it's a beautiful thing!

Thankful for sense oooooo lol....there are too many grown ass people who haven't grown up roaming about :P

Thankful for..for people who grow...people who realize they are on a journey, and yet understand an appreciate every step...because thats what life is and it's fun!

I am thankful for second chances...my mom just reminded me of some our friends that adopted children that had some seriously messed up years...kindness is beautiful

I am thankful for kindness..it's what makes people alive inside...too many dead people walking around, numbed from years of protective hatred...it's so much more rewarding to live uninhibited, love genuinely, and not be so focused on proteting yourself..all you'll do is keep people out...and what sort of life is that? sebi Madonna said she'd rather live one day as a tiger than a thousand years as a sheep..teehee..year of the white tiger people...sexy much?...this whole sermon being said, i will admit that i'm still working on it..nobody wants to get hurt dammit! but!..but! thats looking at it from a very er...Scrooge-ish point of view..hanging on to a sure kobo and passing up a potential million..long story short, it's more rewarding to just be you, and follow what you really feel..It's better to have loved and lost, than to never have loved at all :P

I am thankful for me daddy..it took a while for me to grow up and understand him, but now i do, i am nothing but thankful. I am who i am because of the person my father is. I'm all grown and see the wisdom that just radiates from his sometimes difficult to get along with self lol...every question na philosophical trap..i dey tire sometimes sha :P but! He is one of the most principled and proper people i know, with a sense of right and wrong that just will not budge..he, i realize played a huge part in forming my consicence, which now feels a very deep shame whenever i try to do something...lol...on the negetive side of moral...it's as simple as asking myself how my father will respond to that particular action...*sigh* i am Thankful for him!

I am thankful for my grandparents...they love me! they really love me!

I am thankful that i am loved...no be beans!

I am thankful that i lack illusions of grandeur...wish this illness on everybody..some people are too high up in the clouds for no reason at all...nobody needs it!

I am thankful that i get to be thankful!

I am thankful fot bloggers

I am thankful for Nigerian authors...theres something deeply heartwarming about reading certain works..

I am thankful for Rainbow bookshop!

I am thankful for school on Monday...i take style miss those people....even if i don't wanna leaveeeeee!

I am thankful that he gets me and that i can talk about stuff with him and not have him looking at me like.."tha hell is this idiot on about now? biko lets talk about 50 Cent" :P :P

I am thankful for all my aqcuired brothers and sisters :D..God doesn't leave me hangin!

I am Thankful that my grandfather was in the military...cuz i get to steal yummy uniform things (yes, i have uniform loving issues...hush you!) like the shirt i'm about to wear now and go and get my sisters from school...3pm..

I'm out!....next post shall be on some concrete topic..mehopes

ooh i'm thankful for my mommys friend...took a while...but OMGosh she rawks! one of the most no bullshit honest people i know :D

Luff you guys much..

Phew!

Guilty! Guilty! Guilty! *wails dramatically* I think i haven't done a Thankful Thursday post for three Thursdays now, and even to my ears, my excuses sound like bullshit..so i'll call it what it is, laziness and a general lack of genuine effort on my part..but it's okay, it's not like i've drifted too far..He's been surrounding me with support material aka this book by Al Koran that someone vewy vewy vewy special to me gave me..but more on that later :P

So long story short, i have been having reflective moments and all of that good stuff- my head is still on right..Seems to be the one thing i fear most at the moment..just forgetting my principles and slipping into that auto pilot mode where you aren't really thinking of what you're doing or where you're going, just existing from day to day majorly unconscious...run from that people, RUN..It's the worst thing that can happen to you.

It's not Thursday, and i'm just briefly stopping by to do this, because my procrastination no get part two..However, i am thnkful for SO much ehn..you guys won't even understand..some things even require entire posts, and even then i do not guarantee that i'll convey just how deliriously thankful i am..in Summary though, i've been having a great holiday, because i have the most beautiful people in my life ^_^..

In line with the mini-updateness of this (yup, that is now officially a word...i write am, una read am=word! :D) lemme try and put down post ideas that have been following me around for months now..i need a P.A for realz..or increased discipline..it's amazing how much you can achieve when you put your mind to it..oya, enough with the detour...I am going to do a post on agnosticism and how it er...lol you'll read and understand jor! and uhm, a post on prayer, perhaps..ya'll know how much i love prayer, right?, one on optimism *scratches chin* and one on the Big Misunderstanding of the Bible and how the Bible is..WHOA! it's funny how reading deeper things makes me realize just how much profound wisdom is packed into the simplicity of the Bible..too much philosoply going on...

Oooh and HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! nope, i didn't forget :) 2010 has been blessed for me so far and it keeps getting better, this is gonna be a great year, i feel it. My prayer for everyone is that, (like one of my resolutions :) ) this year should be a year of enlightenment for each and every one of you, because there is no such happiness like the one that knowledge brings, because above all, when you get a certain level of enlightenment, you are at peace and you have this calmness that nothing else can compare to...you learn to cut off the unecessary and recognize the truly important and that, m'dears gives the most wikid sort of joy ever..again, i will tie this to the Bible..but thats an entirely different post :D one on Socrates' story involving some overpriced blanket.i shall do a bit more research on that so i don't give half gist..i will add though, that the first time i heard the story, i was like huh? It's awesomeeee when things that made you scratch your head in cofusion are suddenly so full of apparent wisdom..*lets out content breath* learning is fun :D and that is what i wish you guys this year..to find wisdom, an abundance of it...that wish is not wishing you baskets full of fish, but praying that you guys learn how to fish..might take some work, but the results are priceless...i'm rambling now..lemme sharrap :P

oooh one more post on Fate/destiny shall be attempted..i say attempted, because that talk has always been there to support the opposition whenever i got questions about what God wants from us...lol yet another post..which leads to this resolution..i shall make an extra effort to have at least two posts a week..a TT one, and one rambling/philosophicalish one :D because i have this thing where i think as i write, so writing is the ultimate therapy for me..which is why the whole " i can't post because i don't know what to write" thing is redundant..take this post for instance..i thought it will be two paragraphs o!..and now look what i'm subjecting you guys to :P

That being said, i have to squeeze in some thankfulness

I am Thankful for Him...God just goes on being good too me, extra good when i'm being not so good, because He would do anything to save me from disaster :D

I am Thankful for him...(naturally, you understand the lack of the customaru capitalization of him in this case ;) ) * nah, i'm not craZy, and you guys aren't slow..this particular one is for one person to understand..inside joke tingZ :D..i really am thankful for him though, even if it's an entirely different post *sigh*..God has his plans meyn, and you don't even see them coming, but like now, when you get His presents, you can only be thankful :D

I am thankful for this holiday in Naija thing that i'm on...if someone had told me in say, November, to go crazy with my fantasies, i wouldn't have come up with this...but it's turning out to be the funnest, most rewarding, most growing holiday i've ever had..lol understand am anyhow una want o.. but i've learned so much about so many things ehn...lol i will go back and get started on a book!

I am Thankful for Art..yea, who thought :P but i've been getting emotional over abstract modernist paintings *swoons, gets teary eyed* for realz, things like the texture of the paint hold me spellbound...is this what growing up feels like? me likes!

I am thankful for erm..how do i put this without sounding like an idiot...i am thankful for maturity, cuz meyn..no be how many years you don live at all at all...which makes you realize that it's a gift..not something that is mandatorily(?) aquired proportionally to years lived (phew! when i was typing, it was making sense o..so if you read three times, it can make sense again, cuz me i'm a tad fonkused..teehee)

I am thankful for Wisdom and Knowledge that is all around us, in the most simple things..but we are so pigheaded, that we need to read and go through the most complicated things to realize that there is no such wisdom as is found in the simple..complexities are a major waste of time..true word..but then again the complex journey to the simple is a growing experience..abi it's not just about the destination *sigh*..<< make sense out of that, i promise it's deep and everything, just that i'm a tad distracted..in momsis office and everybody is talking at the same time..

ngwanu baibai jor! before i type epistle here :D

Love you guys tonz, miss you like crazy and will be back properly in a bit (lol, bout the millionth time i'm saying that but er...)

Happy New Year again! have a blessed one and live each day to the fullest, blissfully aware and conscious of every moment, and not for a moment slipping into placing value on what is absolute rubbish...Seek first the Kingdom of God...metaphorical, but think deep :)..or i'll make it into another post...

Stay Blessed!