This being the situation of things, it's truly a miracle that my week (academic) has been so good. Studying has been out of the question and mostly took place in the form of me shoving a book at V and asking her to read and regurgitate a brief, i'm-talking-to-a-toddler summary.... and tests have turned out good- written ones...it's talking that has me jamming. Like literally, i cannot engage and be all there....which is ironic, seeing as i was just declaring that ADD is one of those fancy new diagnoses that people use to avoid being responsible for their powers of concentration...i guess it is legit..
Given all that, and my current inability to focus on any sort of truly emotionally taxing topic, i will state that i am thankful. All this swirling around me is obsolete in the face of all the things i am thankful for.
I am thankful for my Family. They have been there for me, in all the right ways when i need them most. Nothing extra, nothing uncecessary, nothing annoying. Just asking the right questions and no more, saying the right things and no more. It's amazing how much that is.
I am thankful for Love. The fact that really, no matter how much you screw up, and even when you put yourself down the worst, there are people who won't give up on you. God, naturally is Chief among these Love sources. Even if you're a wreck...He still loves you, like parents still love their deadbeat lazy ass children. Of course they admit that you're rather useless, but more than that is that while they will love you either ways, they'd really like to see you do better...
I am thankful for this week. And all the little things that happen that grow into milestones a little while down the road. Small victories...
I am thankful for the super witty book i'm reading. All i'm saying, is that there is something to Brit authors...a grasp of the English Language that their cousins across the pond just do not have a knack for. Sure they can construct a fascinating, epic, adventure, glitz filled story...But Brit writers have the ability to captivate you with nothing but the use of the words, even if the story itself is generally bland. The banter of it, the telling of it is simply delightful and you really don't mind where you're being taken...I have known the dialogue of two losers sitting on a train to be way more satisfying than a high speed chase involving complicated codes and ample bossomed damsels...but that's just me...I have a thing for words...
I am thankful for the movies i've seen this week...been playing Russian Roulette with those..and i like what's turned up...they haven't left me indifferent..
I am thankful for music...
I am thankful for the people in my life, old and new
I am thankful for me. You have to be. You're stuck with yourself until the end of your days. Other people have the good fortune to be able to slap you with a restraining order..your predicament is a lifetime sentence...so better buddy up...
I am thankful for self improvement. I don't think people are born quite the way they are supposed to turn out at the end of it all. It's like a video game. You have a few basic individual qualities you start out with, and along the line you are presented with choices and options and guides and how-to manuals. You pick and choose, undo, start over again, trying to get it right...At least that's what i'm trying to do...
I am thankful for Other People...somewhere i read that people are just angels with one wing, and we need to hug another person so we can fly... Helper or Helpee...everybody wins when one person is there for another person, knowingly or unknowingly.
I am thankful for expression
I am thankful for alone time...
I am thankful for food :)
I am thankful for Lion Bars...no seriously...they are underratedly delicious
I am thankful for stands taken...Doing the right thing always feels good afterwards...even if you feel ripped out of your comfort zone...Just trust Him
I am thankful for God.
I am thankful for His persistence....seriously, i need to write one of those dual meaning novels about how God loves us...so it's relatable to, you see...He's like the lover that is always there for you, ever patient, and never ever leaves. It's just...shaming that i don't think about it like that sometimes and act unappreciative
I am thankful for Contentment...that was what this post was going to be about, you know...but i'll get to it...I am Content. it doesn't mean that i am against things changing or getting better, it means that at every second of the present, i am wholly thankful of where i'm at and trust that it's right.
I am thankful for Faith
I am thankful for forgiveness
I am thankful...okay, at this point this post demands that i think deep and come up with other things that i am thankful for. There are, trees and Life and laughter and heels and water and on and on and on....but simultaneously there seem to be things i'm confused about, in conflict over, and the moment my brain senses them on the periphery, it shuts off and refuses to process....lol it is emotional cowardness...write letters, i shall forward them to my brain :)
I am truly, completely thankful for my life, for every day, and for every new thing i learn that adds to building the me i'm supposed to become...good, bad and ugly...although...the wise thing is to try as much as possible to learn from the good stuff, so you don't have to go through bad and ugly...
And with a quote on the theme, i am off to sleep land...
We learn from the mistakes of others (or are supposed to anyways), but from our own mistakes, we grow...
