Thankful Thursday: In retrospect...

I could really use a foot massage right now. And an all over massage while they're at it. Deep tissue, leave-you-half-conscious type massage...But that's neither here nor there.

Over the past few weeks i've been having a bit of a lull in my relationship with God, because i got confused over certain things, and when that confusion comes, the way i deal with it is to just pause, freeze like The Mask, until clarity is granted. I am thankful that it hasn't pushed me away, but  i cannot do things that do not come from my heart. I refuse to "perform" Christianity and say the right things with the right intonation when my spirit is not in harmony with it.

As God is forever faithful, whenever i've gotten to that moment of frustration, the one right before one is tempted to question everything, God's involvement in our lives included, He gently prompts me to see all the "coincidences" and confusing times even that have led me to where i am, that have led me through storms and brought me to this sunny place. Then i realize that while i may not understand a lot right now, some day i will look back and it will make sense and i will be Thankful.

I am thankful for God

I am thankful for life

I am thankful for my family

I am thankful for Love

I am thankful for encouragement

I am thankful for testimony

I am thankful for honesty

I am thankful for kindness

I am thankful for His plans

I am thankful for wisdom

I am thankful for peace

I am thankful for resilience

I am thankful for literature

I am thankful for my job

I am thankful that days when everything feels horrid don't last forever

I am thankful for numbness

I am thankful for distraction

I am thankful for forgiveness

I am thankful for friends

I am thankful for good atmospere

I am thankful for responsibility

I am thankful for favour

I am thankful for who i am

I am thankful for no fear

I am thankful for tears

I am thankful for food

I am thankful for this gorgeous weather

I am thankful for inspiration

I am thankful for the unknown yet to be made known

I am thankful for the present

I am thankful for the future, and all the possibilities it holds, all the ways in which it could unravel

I am thankful for communication

I am thankful for feelings

I am thankful.