I'll try and keep this short (ha!) seeing as it's past 12, and the third day in a row i'll be going to sleep around 1...not cute mahn, not cute!
However! lemme do my little song and dance and yell how amazing God is. In general, and to me. I am delirious at how everything that happens around me is not coincidental, but orchestrated by Him to bring me to, to lead me to where He needs me to be. Even if i slip, stumble and make a mess of things, He uses that disaster as a stepping stone, makes it into a lesson that makes me stronger..and all this, have ultimately led me back here, back into His presence and i must say that the joy is overwhelming. It's peace and joy and comfort and everything rolled into one. It's a sense of rightness after all the time i've spent looking for God, as i now realize, everywhere but right beside me, where He was standing all the while, waiting for me to turn and see Him..but that is another post.
Today, it's about freefalling. Faith. Majority of us, me included in the times before this realization dawned on me, and in moments now when it slips my mind, say we have faith. And we do, it is by no means a lie when we say it, but miss this vital aspect of it. It is just a layer of knowledge that is added on to the existing faith that you do have. Like everything that's built to last a lifetime, it is built layer upon layer, like a pearl or...you know...so it's perfectly fine and okay..just something we need to work on perfecting or bringing into existence.
So back to what faith has to do with freefalling. Me, personally, i am guilty of anxiety. I can be anxious over everything, especially little things, and go into a nervous place, trying to figure out how to control it all and solve it all..by myself. And this is my mistake. Knowing full well that God has asked that we cast ALL our burdens on Him..i still scramble about trying to solve things..perhaps out of habit. Like i pray, and ask Him to help me through and whatnot..and then randomly realize i'm having a panic attack because i am in the midst of backup plans...
Now i'm not saying to be all crazy and do absolutely nothing because we have "cast it all on God"..by no means..God didn't say He'll just drop things on your head...What He will do is clear paths and drop opportunities as you go along tackling the problem, believing that He has taken care of it, so it's just formality for you to go through the motions. If you siddon for house carry leg up, waiting for God to do it on your behalf...you're on your own oh!
Back to free falling...(this is how i keep it short..) What we should learn to do is trust God completely.Not call Him in as a gamble, to fulfill the demands of probability and increase your chances of cashing in on the right source. Trust Him wholly, such that you are not making backup plans on the side. Pray about it as much as you need, pray to let go of your anxieties and trust Him. Close your eyes, pray, then run like crazy and jump off the edge knowing that you won't just fall, but that He will make you soar. And that will just be the beginning of the adventures. I dunno who came up with the propaganda that living your life according to God's will is "boring"...They haven't seen anything yet. Every moment of every day of my life is filled with surprises and joy...now pray with me and for me that i don't go foolish and forget this joy and try to find God where He doesn't hang out...
I AM THANKFULLLLLL! for God
I am thankful for Forgiveness
I am thankful for Prayer
I am thankful for my family
I am thankful for inspiration (as usual, i cannot claim this post mahn..i was going to write two lines! two!..also, the rate at which blog ideas have been attacking me ehn!)
I am thankful for this blog
I am thankful that He guides my steps
I am thankful for His plans for me
I am thankful for His love
I am thankful that He saves me each and every time
I am thankful that He's there every moment of every day
I am thankful that He is in the details,and not just grandiose things...He is there in every book, every flower, kitten and smile..making me smile
I am thankful for His Joy
I am thankful for serenity
I am thankful for forgiveness
I am thankful for His love
I am thankful for Love
I am thankful for words
I am thankful for lessons
I am thankful for His word
I am thankful for Life!!!
Also, i am thankful for the testimonies i get to give each day...God answers prayers in ways that have me steady picking my jaw up from the ground..
I am thankful for mentors
I am thankful for kindness
I am thankful for people without an agenda
I am thankful for sleep...which i am currently neglecting...
God.Is.Awesome!...so don't be afraid to jump..He has your back.
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